Thursday, November 20, 2014

New Beginnings...

I did not expect that this year will turn out to be a shaky one for me.  The demise of the members of my family came as an unpleasant surprise.  Everything happens in a snap of a finger, it never crossed my mind that I will lose my elder brother and mother one after the other within a month.  It was a terrifying experience.  Exactly a year after I resigned from my work abroad, things came unexpectedly. My Mom's health has deteriorated a lot until she gets totally bed ridden for a couple of months prior to her untimely death.  Well, my Mom is already old and I have long prepared myself that one day, I will lose her but I did not expect that this will happen very soon.  I managed to stay at home for one whole year with her before she passed away which became a consolation to me. Given a choice, I wish to have spent more time with her.  I hardly spent time with her as I was always busy working. Admittedly, we did not have a perfect relationship as we also have our own share of disagreements and misunderstandings, but I couldn't deny the fact that I still love her just the same.





From this bad experience that I had this year, what saddens me me most is the fact that I was not able to make it up with my brother.  I hardly seen him for years.  Fortunately, I managed to talk to him 2 months before he passed away but this does not satisfy me.  I felt that I should have done more to spend more time with him in a more meaningful way and for this, I felt so sorry.

From these experiences, I realized one thing.... time is really gold, and it shouldn't be wasted on harboring ill feelings towards other people, more so if those people are the ones closest to your heart. Admittedly, I was not communicating with my siblings for years due to some personal issues but all what I had inside my heart vanished after this experience.  Losing two people who are very dear to me is not a thing to be happy about, but the fact that this has opened new doors for renewed relationships is indeed a reward.







This new beginning has opened my eyes in a number of ways, and I vowed to correct my mistakes and what I have failed to do.  God is really good and I thank Him so much for giving me a new life.  Now, I have more reasons to smile for ahead me are more meaningful memories that I would cherish for a life time.




"At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable."
Mark V. Olsen and Will Sheffer 




17 comments:

breathejess said...

May the comfort of God help you during this difficult time.

Nilyn EC Matugas said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Thank you for the lesson shared, you are definitely correct sis.

Pamela Gutierrez said...

Condolence, sis. I can only imagine how devastating it was for you to lose two loved ones in a month...but it's good to see that what happened has given you a new perspective in life and relationship. Truly time is gold...life is gold. And time spent with your loved ones will always be cherished.

Cym Marzan said...

Condolences to you... Sometimes death happens so suddenly, we need to express our heartfelt appreciation and love to our family always.

Melgie Campbell said...

Sorry to hear about your lose Sis! It's hard its very hard to go through that kind of situation. I agree, there's always a new beginnings, a better and joyful one.:)

Ida JT said...

My sincerest condolences to the demise of your mother and brother. On a lighter note, it is heartwarming to read the lessons and realizations you've learned through these unfortunate occasions. God bless!

Dominique Goh said...

Glad to know that you managed to spend time with your love ones before their passing on. Yes GOD does give 2nd chances and glad that you took it.

katsjourney said...

That is a nice realization. Life is short. There are things and rifts we let pass because we value the relationship more. Hope you have a better 2015.

Kristine Gavilano said...

My sympathy, sis. I also lost my grandmother this year.

Thank you for the wisdom you shared about this. Nakakarelate ako. And as of now, I still can't face my unforgiving feeling about people who hurt me this year. I don't wish them bad, but I'm still not planning to reconcile as they didn't even ask for forgiveness. I think in the right time. I will heal too.

Melgie Campbell said...

Condolences to you and your family Sis. I truly understand what you been through and I hope everything will go smooth from now. God bless
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cheragiles said...

Condolence to you and your family. I hope that you may be showered with strength to overcome these challenging events in your life. But I am glad that beyond everything that's happening right now, you are still able to look on the positive things. Indeed, this is a new beginning for you and the rest of the family. I will include your mom and your elder brother in my prayers. May their soul rest in peace.

Allan D said...

Sometimes it is hard for us to accept when we lost someone from the family. But we need to move on and face the world.

Peachy Adarne said...

My deepest Condolences to you and your family.

JanzCrystalz January said...

Condolence sis. I also lost my mother in law this year, though it was painful yet life must go on for those who were left behind.

Marie Bulatao said...

So sorry for your loss, Krissa. I have also gone through the same thing when my dad died but if there is one thing I learned is always to live in the moment...

Miss `Chievous said...

Sorry to hear about this. Pray and be strong okay? You eill get through it.

Pehpot Pineda said...

Sorry to hear about this.. It's nice to read how you are coping up with your loss and learning from it.

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